Down

I just received a bad news today...


All my hopes are gone.


Where should I look forward when there is only darkness on the horizon?


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Heartbroken

It is all over.

It had been a year and a half I had been with him.

Things ended badly.

I wonder what love is if love involves hurting the one you claimed to love?

I can't sleep.

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Lost

I'm suffering from a tremendous headache when I'm typing out this post...

Dilemma. Lost.

I feel myself losing the person in front of me.

It is like I don't know the person at all....

Maybe I'm the one who had changed... I've no idea.

I find myself hoping that things will get back to the past.

I wish time machines are for real.

Perhaps that person really cares for me a lot....

However, I do not agree with the methods he used.

I find my heart sinks when he voiced out all those stuffs to me.

I've no idea he'll say stuffs like this.

I feel low self-esteem...

How could he can't understand what I'm talking about?

I believe that I've explained to him from time to time...

Maybe they're not the answers he expected.

When is the right time to put an end to "second chance"?


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I hate CNY!!!!!

I hate CNY!!


No chinese restaurants open during CNY!!!


I've no chinese food to eat.... 


I've to make a tough choice between Pizza Hut, KFC, McD, Sushi King and Secret Recipe...


I'm so damn sick of fast food wey!!


This is my first time going through CNY alone... (I did not go back home.)


Hostel is eerily quiet. Everybody has go back. The only residents left are those Arabs. Urgh! Mind you, I'm not being racist. They gave me very bad impression.... 


Let me tell you why....


There was once this Arab guy, he had been staring at me for an hour in the library. I was there with my bf and noticed there was this man who can't take his eyes off me. We were working on our assignments with library computers. I felt bored and decided to check out my facebook. So I walked to the other row of computers and surf the internet. As soon as I left him, that creepy Arab guy approached me. He intruded my social proxemic by keeping a distance from me which I would have defined as "intimate". He stood there with an arm around my chair! IN THE LIBRARY!!! God damn it!! His armpit stinks like hell man!! He is sturdily build and looked like an "apek" in his mid 30s. 


Apek: Hi


Me: Hi


Apek: Are you a chinese?


Me: Yea? ( So what if I were NOT a chinese? )


Apek: May I know which faculty and year are you in? ( At this moment, he was leaning so damn close to me and I had to inch backwards away from him...)


Me: I'm from faculty of electrical engineering. Second year this year.


Apek: Actually, I like you. Can we be friends?


Me: No?


Apek: No?


Me: Yes, NO!


He left the library immediately, damn pissed off with his failure. What did he expect??? I jumped up and down excitedly and squealed "Oh, I like you too???" SIAO!!! Come on la... I bet this is just another desperate attempt he used to get the Malaysian citizenship! 


There is something creepy going on at my wing. I swear that I heard tap water running and someone flushing the toilet at broad daylight. Too bad I've no guts to check it out. However, I had observed that all of the rooms appeared to be unoccupied as there are no lights switched on at night. Scary right? I even went as far as observed the shoes and slippers placed in front of each room. If there were someone, shoe patterns would have been different each time they wear it and leave it outside before go inside their room. I had discovered nothing out of ordinary..... 


Man, how am I going to survive another 3 days alone? ><

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家

依稀记得当初往宿舍报到，周围的环境对我来说很陌生。

生平这么大，第一次离家这么远……

一切都要自立更生。

一切都要重新适应。

在那段日子里，我时时刻刻都挂念着我的“家”……

不知不觉中，我住在柔佛已有一年半了。

渐渐的，宿舍在我心目中演变成第二个“家”。

我开始没有时常牵挂着我的家乡。

矛盾的是，当我回到了家，我反而会想念柔佛的生活；在柔佛时，我又会想念家乡的美食。

到底那里才是我的家呢？


人的感情是很矛盾的。

在何处落脚，那里就是“家”。

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